Mallorie won't take a Bottle

I am beyond upset with myself for getting toooo lazy to pump and make her take a bottle every now and then. She will NOT take it and will refuse for as long as she can and I hate to see her upset and crying her little heart out that I'll give in and give her the boobs! It's all very frustrating and I would like to start weaning her now so by the time she's six months she'll be formula and breastfeed but I already see I have a long road ahead of me. To be honest I use to love pumping and seeing all of the milk that came out of me but staying home with the girls got me really lazy as far as pumping so when she got hungry I would just pull out a boob. I love being able to just feed her without having to run in the kitchen and make a bottle. BUT there are consequences with doing that.... I'm unable to leave her alone with anyone for long periods of time, we hardly ever go on a date night without her, the hubby (poor thing) can't even put her to sleep because she wants to fall asleep on my boob. It's all becoming too much and I would like to give up breastfeeding all together. I don't want to seem like a quitter but I'm very overwhelmed. I'm praying that baby girl will take a bottle soon so mommy can get a little help because the hubbs told me last night that this whole thing is my fault and that's why he can't help with her. And he's absolutely right!

Tootles

My Decision, Your Decision, Who Cares!!!!

When it comes to breastfeeding people become so critical with a decision that is up to me to make. I get so aggravated when people ask how long I breastfeed Madison or am I going to breastfeed this baby. Last night was one of those nights that I just wanted to go off on someone because the question was asked and it sort of bothered me.

My cousin and his wife had their baby boy on Thursday so we went Thursday night and last night to see the baby. Last night, a close family friend was there and she asked if I breastfeed Maddie and I said yes for 3 months (I also explained why I had to stop due to a lot of complications I was having) and she said that's it? I was like yes and she chuckled and told me how long she breastfeed her 2 kids (who.... I won't go there) Lol... Maybe I'm overreacting but I had to change the subject real quick because I felt myself getting an attitude. My opinion is that if you decide to breastfeed for however long you want and if you decide not to breastfeed at all that's perfectly fine because that's your decision.

People really get me sometimes.....

However, I am going to try and breastfeed the little one that's on the way and I hope she latches on properly so I can continue to do it and if she doesn't oh well. She will still be healthy and smart. Regardless, of what people say the decision is mine and it's all good.