The Terrible 3's

I finally have a chance to write in my blog:-) It's so hard to blog especially with Madison and Mallorie.... So, I try to do the best that I can! However, Madison sometimes drives me to the edge. This almost 4 year old little girl is off the chain. Why didn't anyone tell me about the Terrible 3's? She is starting to tell me no, she says the most outrageous things, if you heard my child talk you would think she was a bit older (people that meet us for the first time usually think she is older) and that she was in school. She's a very bright little girl but her energy level is through the roof and I have to repeat myself more than I want to. I love my baby with everything in me but she drives me insane sometimes! If some of you would be honest I think at some point in time your child probably does too... Lol..... She'll even do something I told her not to do and look at me and smile, just to see if she can get away with it. Kids will drive you up the wall sometime, I don't mind it because they are kids and that's what they do. I mean I was once a child but I wasn't as active as Madison is. Sometimes I do let things slide because I know she is a child but the older she gets I have to discipline and explain to her this is not right and things she can and can not do because I don't want her acting a certain way around people. She'll be starting Pre-K in August so I want her to be well behaved. However, Madison has been a little rowdy recently and I hope she starts to calm down soon because I can only take so much:-)

I Nursed in Public

Breastfeeding has been going extremely well this go round with Baby #2... The only complaint I have is that she eats A LOT, She's always hungry and I find myself popping out my boobs more than I would like... However, Everything is going very well and I am Thankful for that b/c I wasn't able to exclusively breastfeed Madison as I hoped and I was in a lot of pain due to the sore nipples. I gave it up after 3 months. So, I nursed in public on Saturday night when we took Madison to Chuckie Cheese. I came back from playing with Maddie and the hubby was like "homegirl is hungry what are you going to do?" I brought some similac someone had given me b/c I didn't have enough to pump. I knew it would be hard to give her similac because she is an exclusively breastfeed baby and like I expected she spit it out and wouldn't take it.... So, I was like forget it! I'm not going to let my child suffer b/c I'm afraid someone is going to call the cops on me b/c I popped my boob out to feed my baby  so I got my nursing cover and fed her. I got a few stares but who cares it didn't take long and mommy & baby were happy! I'm not going to lie, I was afraid to do it... I heard it was against the law, etc. I think I might start doing it more often instead of frustrating myself trying to find somewhere to feed her and all that jazz. She hates doesn't like a bottle so a girls got to do what a girls got to do. My goal is to stop exclusively nursing her at 6 months but I think my little fat mama has some other plans.

Tootles

Can you please stop yelling?

The hubby asked me that today.... I couldn't even get mad because I have a tendency of yelling when I get irritated with him and the kids. I feel like if I have to repeat myself over and over again, maybe if I yell they will hear me.

The hubby told me tonight that he doesn't want this family to yell anymore, especially the 2 of us.... He doesn't want our girls seeing us yelling at each other, and I have to agree with him. It's not something I want them to see or do in there later years. By the way my daughter (Maddie) has a tendency of talking loud as well. Majority of my family on my mom's side talk REALLY loud but most of the time we don't even realize it and it has happened to fall on my Maddie. She is a loud girl and when she cries its the worse its loud too!

I love my hubbs.... He mad a lot of sense tonight, we are total opposites and we balance each other out! I'm working on not talking loud and especially talking loud in front of the girls.... He we all have to start somewhere so tomorrow is a new day and maybe I could bring it down a notch:-)

Tootles

I AM IN LOVE

with a little girl named Mallorie.... I love her so much! She is 3 months old now

She does not like her bouncy for more than 15 mins    

She's teething and sucking on her fingers now

She still doesn't have any tears when she cries

She is the happiest little baby when she's not hungry, wet, or sleepy

She pukes all the time

She does not like bottles only my nipple

She loves her binky

She's eating cereal out of a spoon

She does not like to be rocked to sleep by daddy

Her nails grow like crazy

She loves bath time

She LOVES her big sister

May I have some privacy please?

One of my favorite lines out of the movie Crooklyn from the mother of 5 kids w/ a husband-- "I can't even go to the bathroom without 6 people hanging off my tits!" Lol..... Every time I hear that I laugh because its a true statement.

Sometimes I just want to go the bathroom without Madison walking in... Even when I lock the door she goes and gets a knife from her tea party set and unlocks the door! She'll come in and say I need to brush my teeth, use the potty, or she'll just come in and ask me what I'm doing and will try to have a conversation. My husband will do the same thing.... He says he can't hold "it" so he'll come in and use the bathroom. We live in an older home and it only has one bathroom so it gets a little frustrating (by the way- I can't wait to move at the end of March. YAY). Now, when I'm home alone with the girls its even more frustrating. I try to sneak a shower in but I can't, someone either wakes up etc. so while they are awake I get her bouncy and put it in front of the bathroom door so I can see her/ hear her but she doesn't like her bouncy so she cries the whole time and I have to rush my shower or I have to keep yelling through the shower to tell Madison to put her sisters binky in her mouth or talk and play with her sister until I get out. It's been a while since I had a new born in the house so I forgot how hard it is to get some time in the shower. Sometimes just sometimes I want to take a bath or shower without being interrupted with smells, 3 year old conversations, or a baby crying. hahaha.... The funniest thing to me out of all of it is that as soon as Madison hears the water stop she opens the door and asks if me if I'm finished and can we play with toys.... The Life of a Mommy can sometimes be hilarious and annoying at the same time! Lol

Tootles

Going out with a 3 1/2 year old & a 3 month old...

While I would be out I would feel like I was going to lose my mind... I would be driving and Madison would be buggin about something and then the baby would start crying. And when the baby starts crying I try turning the music up or putting the binky in her mouth but nothing really works b/c I'm driving. It gets so bad sometimes, I would tell Madi to unhook the top of her seat belt in her carseat to put the binky back in her mouth. Now, for those of you who want to call the child protective services on me; she's still buckled in its just the part across the chest that she loosens and then she puts it back together. Hey! Desperate times calls for Desperate Measures:-/

Today it happened again but this time when all else failed I just let her cry and she cried herself to sleep... I realized I can't keep trying to do so much while I'm driving b/c I've almost crashed a couple of times...Lol

When I found out I was pregnant with Mallorie, I knew that one day I would have to go out alone with her and Madison but I always felt like I wouldn't be able to handle it AND sometimes I feel like I can't, even when I'm out with them. Slowly but surely I'm conquering going out with both of my girls and it feels good. I'm almost a Pro!

Tootles

What a Friend I have in Jesus!!!!

I am a 25 year old mother and wife and sometimes life can get overwhelming, challenging, and flat out crazy. I began to get very overwhelmed. I could barely get out of bed to play with Madison b/c my mood was that bad but I would still make it a point to play with her at some point within a day. My husband was spending less time with me and that was also taking a toll on me (he's doing better by the way) I still love my husband he is a Great man but I will honestly say I was being neglected and it hurt me. I don't have many friends and the one's I do have we don't go out or talk as much so to make a long story short I was feeling very neglected, alone, scared, depressed, and so on.

As the days went on I would get in the shower and pray to Jesus b/c I know he listens and he answers prayer!

I GAVE IT TO GOD!

I am doing BETTER I refuse to allow the devil to still my joy, my marriage, and my mind..... I love my family and I know that I am loved but as a child the devil new how to get to me and it was always my mind. I've had a lot going on in my life since I was 3 years old but I always seem to bounce back and that's how I know that God has a plan for my life. I will NOT let the devil win!

God's word says that he will never leave me nor forsake me, so, I know he's with me....

This song really encouraged me.... What A friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear, what a privilege it is to carry. Everything to God in prayer!

I will leave with this scripture....

Isaiah 41:10- Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed. for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand

Tootles

My Kid says the Darnedest Things

1.) Mommy I went to the potty and my pee was yellow and my boo boo was black

2.) With a very concerned look on her face she told her father that veggie tales don't have arms

3.) Mom daddy's car is dirty and he needs to clean it, I'm scared to clean it so he needs to clean it

These are the funniest things that she said today.... Just thought I would share:-)

Tootles

All I want is

Quality time with my husband.... but what do I get? Excuses! All the time... Everything else is more important. Georgia Bulldogs, Twitter, Facebook, The Gym, Etc. All I get is the tired man that wants to go to bed after he's played with all those things... If we watch a movie that I want to watch he falls asleep.... If I ask to do something, sometimes he'll say I'm tired but will stay on his laptop for another hour... funny right? The other day he says I must go to the gym 3 times a week and I got so upset because he doesn't even say I must spend time with my wife at least once a week. All I asked was to play scrabble before bed and you know what he said "I'm not staying up all night playing that game b/c you know that game is long" but guess what he's doing at this very moment. ON HIS LAPTOP:-) I didn't even get upset like I normally would b/c I seem to get a little out of hand some time but all I said was don't worry about it. I WILL NOT beg for his attention. I'm upset right now and all I want is "US" time but what do I get? excuses....

He did say he was taking me out this weekend (which will be the first time we've been out in months since before I had the baby) so I have to make sure I have enough milk pumped in order for us to go anywhere. However, don't get me wrong I have a good husband and he takes care of his family and he loves me unconditionally but when it comes down to quality time with me he neglects it. I won't keep writing about this situation b/c I'll keep working myself up.... LOL

Tootles

POTTY UPDATE!!!!!

Drumroll Please..........................................

MADISON IS OFFICIALLY POTTY TRAINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She has been wearing panties everyday all day for a whole month now and has had 0 accidents... The only time she puts on a pull up is at bedtime and most of the time she wakes up dry:-)

I am one PROUD mommy!!!!

Here's a sneak peek of my Madison during our photoshoot in November. 

Mallorie's Birth Story

I'm going to try and make this as short as possible:-)

On October 17, 2011 Little Miss Mallorie Victoria Lockwood was born!

To make a long story short on October 15th around 11pm I started having little cramps and they begin to escalate to me. I dont know if it was b/c I just wanted her to come out or if it was really happening but I ended up calling my Dr. on Oct 16th around 5 am and he told me to head to the hospital (I was 38 weeks and 4 days at this point) so we dropped Madison off at my Aunts house and headed to the hospital. We got there signed the papers and headed to my Labor & Delivery room. I'm going to skip a few things and lets just say I wasn't in active labor but I was 2 centimeters dilated and 70% effaced. My contractions had slowed down so they had no reason to keep me but my Dr. came and said he wanted to keep me so we knew that she was coming soon.

While we waited on something to happen I got extremely hungry and I begged my Dr for an hour to let me eat so my husband went downstairs and got me a big mac meal and I was good to go. The meal put me to sleep so while I was sleeping I was awaken with 3 nurses at my side yelling telling me to turn over because her heart rate got really low and to make a long story short throughout the entire day I went through that and yes it was a little aggravating having to lay on my left side for hours but I knew I had to, they also put me on pitocin to help speed up my contractions.

I think I was around 6 or 7 centimeters when I decided to get epidural and after that epidural I couldn't feel ANYTHING until a few hours after she was born. I was told that the nurse pumped a little to much of it in my IV. However, after the epidural I went back to sleep for a while and when my nurse came back in to check me and a she was checking me I said I feel something tingling. Honestly, thats all I could feel. It wasn't a pop or a gush that I felt but it was sort of like butterflies in my stomach and my husband was standing over me and said that my water had broke and I look down and water was just flowing everywhere and while that was happening her heart rate got extremely low and all I can say is that everything started moving so fast at that point, I got so scared.

They put me on oxygen because they said the baby wasn't getting enough oxygen. Dr came in and they were like push we have to  get her out, so I started pushing and to my knowledge I was so numb I thought I was pushing but I wasn't so he has to use a vacuum to get her out which I couldn't feel either. Luckily, I didn't tear throughout that whole process. My husband was unable to cut the cord because it was so much going on but she came and she was healthy and that's all that matters. She was born on October 17th at 1:05 am weighing 6 pds & 9 oz. I was so happy and so was my entire family who was waiting in the waiting room to meet her. By the way- Northside Hospital Atlanta is THE best hospital Ever! AND so is my DR.:-)

I had her on that Monday and the night before we got ready to leave (Tuesday Night) we found out she had Jaundice and to make a long story short we weren't able to go home that Wednesday and she had to stay an extra day until her skin was a little clearer. However, they let us stay with her and we all came home Thursday Night!

Me & My Husband before she came

My Mommy & I

My First Born Madison & she's Excited

Yay! She's Here

The Happy Parents

Mommy & Baby

Big Sister & Little Sister

Getting Cleaned up & she doesn't like that at all

Sleeping Beauty

 Big Sister came to visit us the following day

Dressed for her pictures

Mallorie's First Pictures

Daddy checking on our little Jaundice Baby

Getting Ready to go home

Finally Home

Welcome Back ME!!!!

After having Mallorie I totally didn't have time to write on my blog.... Especially having a 3 1/2 year old and a newborn at the same time it was pretty rough. I would try and start and then Madison would want something or Mallorie needed me as well so it became impossible. I'm back and ready to share my day to day adventures of a S.A.H.M and wife... Things have been so rough for me lately! I've felt lonely, afraid, happy, furious, depressed, excited, etc. I have been on a crazy emotional rollercoaster and this is my place to release and share so today I may be posting more entries than I have in a day I guess it depends on how free I am. However, I'm glad to be back to the blogging world, I will try my best to stay faithful to my blog! HAPPY NEW YEAR!