marriage is hard sometimes

I'm not ranting and I am not putting down my marriage at all but Can I be real for just a moment?

Marriage sucks sometimes..............

I am a woman, a wife, and a mother who does not have it all together.

Marriage is one of the best things God created. It is a blessing to be married to this other imperfect human that God designed just for you but it isn't always perfect. It isn't always this fairy tale that everyone makes it seems.

Marriage comes with so many challenges. Such as.. Finances, Sex, Communication, Kids, Infidelity and so on....

You are with this person everyday for the rest of your life and its not always peaches and cream... Sometimes I want to act like a baby which I do sometimes pout and cry with my arms folded until he comes for me begging that I forgive him but life isn't that way. We have to work through our problems... Forgive and move on! AND isn't that like the hardest part? lol.... Both of you/us want to be right so nobody wants to do it or somebody wants to have the last word.

Crazy right? Marriage is HARD! PERIOD!

I cry sometimes because I feel like maybe he doesn't love me like he says he does or maybe we just aren't compatible and as I right this mad at him then I go back and realize I am definitely blessed to have the man that I have in my life but it just gets so hard sometimes.

I believe we are one blessed family but I won't sit here and act like we have it all together because we don't. As I sit here writing this post I look back at our good times and realize that our good days definitely outweigh the bad. I am one of those people who absolutely, positively, HATES going to bed mad so hopefully by the end of the day I will be the "bigger" person and resolve this issue before we go to bed tonight. lol

Loving & Learning,
-Martina

I Adore my Husband

I'm sitting here thinking about how Good I have it. I'm SO blessed and I don't take it for granted.
Who wouldn't love a man that loves God and his family? I know I do..... He works so hard to provide for us and he allows me to stay home with girls. He doesn't complain but encourages me, pushes me into my destiny, and prays for me constantly. I love him so much and I thank God for blessing me with such a man. He loves me in spite of my flaws and he continues to be a Great husband and leader of this family. He has not been perfect and yes he does make me mad sometimes and maybe a little frustrated but the Good always outweighs the bad.

Ladies: encourage, pray, and support your man. 

Tootles

I AM IN LOVE

with a little girl named Mallorie.... I love her so much! She is 3 months old now

She does not like her bouncy for more than 15 mins    

She's teething and sucking on her fingers now

She still doesn't have any tears when she cries

She is the happiest little baby when she's not hungry, wet, or sleepy

She pukes all the time

She does not like bottles only my nipple

She loves her binky

She's eating cereal out of a spoon

She does not like to be rocked to sleep by daddy

Her nails grow like crazy

She loves bath time

She LOVES her big sister

SHE'S HERE!!!!

Mallorie Victoria Lockwood has arrived.... She made her Grand Entrance on October 17th 2011 weighing 6lbs 9oz! We are more than excited to have our now 3 week old daughter... Madison is doing great being a big sister and I think I have to tell her to leave her sister alone at least 50 times a day. I am sleep deprived & tired but all is well. I haven't been on here in a while and that's all because I have a newborn and things have been a little crazy around here especially being sleep deprived, breastfeeding, and having a toddler running around here but I am blessed and loving these precious moments and when I get some more time I will give my interesting birth story but until then here is a picture of my princess fresh out of the womb!

To all of the Mothers and Wives..... Be Encouraged!

Be Encouraged my sisters.... I know its not easy being a mother and a wife! For me I think it might be one of the hardest jobs to have. For some of us we may not be the bread winners of the family but we are the cooks,  disciplinarian, maid, care-givers, doctor, story-teller (for nighttime with the kids), sex machine, baker, lover, and many more things but you get what I'm saying.

We're ALL of these things and sometimes we get tired!!!! There are times when I want to just get in the car leave for a whole day without telling anyone where I am. I get frustrated, angry, and tired! I know people think we are superwoman/supermom but we are human and are trying to do the best we can and sometimes we want to feel appreciated. Trust me when I say that one little day we get a year is not enough.

I just want to encourage the mommies and wives out there to continue to do what you do best. It's not easy and it is tiresome but we will make it.

*Love until you can't love anymore

*Smile when you want to roll your eyes and punch a whole in the wall

*Take a break and do something for yourself. This one is for me too b/c I rarely do this and as soon as I have this baby things will and are going to change around here, b/c I hardly get me time and that's where a lot of my frustration comes in.

The title and roll we carry is not easy but we can and will make it.... Even when we don't want to be let's be the best mommies and wives we can be... Be Encouraged and let's keep each other lifted up in prayer!

Lord,

Thank you for you love, your unconditional love. Thank you for being our provider and supplying all of our needs. Forgive us for all things known and unknown and help us to forgive ourselves for anything we've done... We offer ourselves to you first and then to our families asking that you will help us to love our spouses unconditionally. When good times come, help us to love. When bad times come, help us to love. Help us to be patient, kind-hearted, and to understand our husbands. Allow us Lord to be patient with our children and to be the mother's you've called us to be. Help us to be the prayer warriors of our families to keep our families strong and together because we know that only you can do it. Give us understanding on how to be the Mothers and Wives that you would have us to be. We cast our cares upon you God for we know that only your yoke is easy and your burden is light. We give our cares to you when we're stressed, we give our cares to you when were down, feeling lonely, or unloved. We love you lord for keeping us this far and we pray that you will continue to keep us and make and mold us into the women you want us to be. I pray that the spirit of depression, anxiety, and worry will not overtake us. Wrap us in your arms and comfort us when we feel alone and that no one cares. Give us the strength to make it even when we don't feel like we can! You are God, our father, and our comfort and with you all things are possible. We know that you can mend the broken hearts so Lord any Mother or Wife who is broken and who need you at this very moment comfort them and heal them of every hurt and pain.  Help us to endure and help us to see what the future holds for us. In Jesus Name , Amen!

Things I actually Love about my Husband

1.) He washes the dishes sometimes without me asking- Even though he may not do them the way I want, I won't complain because he does it and some men don't do that.

2.) He's a praying man and he truly loves the Lord- I love this most of all because you rarely find men like that anymore.

3.) He's very talented! He is amazing on the Acoustic Guitar....

4.) He is a very warm and kind person.

5.) Since the pregnancy he has taken care of me.... Maybe not all the time or exactly what I want him to do but if I want him to make me some cookies and milk, or get me a certain dish that I'm craving, or even deal with my whining when I don't get my way. I must say he does do those things and I am grateful..

Things I LOVE that my husband does......

1.) Eats my leftovers or drinks up all the drinks without saying anything.

2.) Inconsiderate of my feelings Ex: If you eat your pregnant wife's leftovers, food, drinks! That is very inconsiderate... lol

3.) He's a hoarder and he doesn't like to get rid of anything

4.) Puts more into football & the gym more than his girls (at least that's how I feel sometimes)

5.) Leaves things around for me to throw away or pick up since obviously I'm his maid

6.) Falls asleep while having pillow talk

7.) "Sometimes" Unresponsive to things I'm trying to communicate about

8.) Makes me feel like a Million Bucks- NOT! Lol

Marriage can be so complicated!!!!

A much needed Date Night....

When you get married and have children sometimes you forget about "us" and the time you need with just you and him.... So, Madison stayed with her Nana (Thanks Mom) and me and my husband decided that we would do something last night so I was craving ribs and he took me to Sonny's and then we went to a dollar movie to see the Hangover 2 which was hilarious. I told him this morning when I woke up that he has me sprung, we had been having a lot of tension between us and couldn't figure out why we kept arguing ALL the time and I think we just needed that quality time without Madison. Trust me when I say that was all we needed:-)

Its a must that "we" husbands and wives make time for each other so we can keep the romance and the relationship alive. Its a MUST! You don't want your marriage to start getting boring. Even if you have to rent a movie, cuddle and hold each other at night, cook together, etc. its imperative that we keep the romance alive. Prayer is also the key actually the #1 key to a successful marriage and then you add to the list but we must pray for our spouses and our marriage that God will sustain us in this time. Show your spouse some love and do something (surprisingly) different and watch what happens.

Let's keep love alive and watch our marriages flourish into what God wants it to be!