A Mommy Break

It is 7:27 pm and the girls are asleep..... I am sitting in my room with the light off and the girls are sound asleep next to me... They've actually been sleep for quite a while and I don't plan on waking them up:-/ I know when hubbs comes home hes going to be upset but I just wanted a break to just be on the internet, read blogs, BLOG,  etc. without being interrupted. I didn't take the chance to do house work which I know needs to be done, I got a mommy break and I don't feel bad about it. I'm enjoying looking at their sweet little faces while they sleep while praying they don't wake up.... hahahaha..... The crazy part about this whole thing is that it's all most 8:00 and I know for a fact I'm going to regret this later:-)

Tootles

Mallorie won't take a Bottle

I am beyond upset with myself for getting toooo lazy to pump and make her take a bottle every now and then. She will NOT take it and will refuse for as long as she can and I hate to see her upset and crying her little heart out that I'll give in and give her the boobs! It's all very frustrating and I would like to start weaning her now so by the time she's six months she'll be formula and breastfeed but I already see I have a long road ahead of me. To be honest I use to love pumping and seeing all of the milk that came out of me but staying home with the girls got me really lazy as far as pumping so when she got hungry I would just pull out a boob. I love being able to just feed her without having to run in the kitchen and make a bottle. BUT there are consequences with doing that.... I'm unable to leave her alone with anyone for long periods of time, we hardly ever go on a date night without her, the hubby (poor thing) can't even put her to sleep because she wants to fall asleep on my boob. It's all becoming too much and I would like to give up breastfeeding all together. I don't want to seem like a quitter but I'm very overwhelmed. I'm praying that baby girl will take a bottle soon so mommy can get a little help because the hubbs told me last night that this whole thing is my fault and that's why he can't help with her. And he's absolutely right!

Tootles

My snack before bed

These cookies are the TRUTH!!!!

The only time I don't eat them is when we run out but before bed every night I have to bake at least 4-5 cookies and get me a giant glass of milk to go along with it and I'm good to go! I'm mad right now because I ate the last of them last night and I want some so bad right now.... I know I need to break this habit but these cookies are delicious... If you haven't had them you MUST try them because they are YUMMY:-)

Tootles

This week has been a rough one

I have a lot to write about today more so because I have the time and I have to catch up on things I've been wanting to blog about. You may see two more blogs after this one due to the fact that I'm unable to post like I would like. However- here we go.... My Mom had dental surgery and ever since I knew she was going to have major surgery in her mouth I knew I would go and care for her, especially since I stay home with the girls, it wasn't a problem b/c I have the time and I'm able to do it. Well, try taking care of your mom with a toddler and a very new infant around. hahahaha... I thought it would be easy b/c we were at my grandparents house and my grandmother was there and she had the baby, let's just say the baby didnt want to cooperate because she's so use to mommy and always wants mommy due to me nursing her all the time. They have a huge house with a ton of stairs so I was running up and down the steps taking care of my mom and the babies which was fine until Madison wanted one thing after the other then the baby wouldn't stay in her bouncer for more than 5 mins. I would put the baby to sleep and Madison would come by and wake her up some how (like she always does! UGH) and I would have to start all over again with Mallorie. Then Madison was talking extremely loud. Everyone such as my mom, myself, and my grandparents couldn't handle the noise  I  mean she is LOUD sometimes! I immediately started getting a migraine and everything she and Mallorie would do I would get more aggravated. I had to cut of Mallorie's onesie because she "went" and when I say it got everywhere, it got Everywhere! To make a long story short and stop all of my ramblings by the end of the night the ate and Madison fell out on the floor and went to sleep. I didn't bother her, normally I would move her so she could be comfortable or so I wouldn't have to step over here but she did so much that day, I had to discipline her more than I wanted to, and she wouldn't listen to anything anyone was telling her.... I left her there until it was time to go. Mallorie eventually fell asleep in her car seat, never really happens unless we're in the car but it happened and I didn't bother her either. I left with a headache and prayed to God when I got home and begged asked him if I could get a good night's sleep. Needless to say, my prayer was answered! I am so terribly sorry for my ramblings but it was hectic. All of this happened Wed and Thurs. Wed was Extreme and Thursday wasn't so bad but it wasn't that great of a day either. I wanted to blog about it as soon as I got home but I was so exhausted and emotional I couldn't do it. I just wanted to sleep....