Friends... How many of us have them?

I've tried to make friends that can relate to me and some that I wouldn't mind being friends with in general. I've planned things, called people, tried to hang out, etc. but what always happens, they are either busy or its always maybe next time, and most times there is no next time. How many of you feel me on this??

Sometimes I use to wonder, is there something wrong with me? But I've come to realize that there's nothing wrong with me but God will put people that I need in my life and the people I don't need he makes it obvious enough for me to see that I don't need them at the present time or at all.

I love being around Mel and Maddie but sometimes they can aggravate me and vice versa because we're together all the time and I long for that girlfriend I can just hang out with and talk to. I'm not trying to have lots of friends but a few girlfriends I can hang out with from time to time wouldn't be so bad :-)

However, I do realize that sometimes after you've been through alot with people God is keeping you safe from being hurt again and he's preparing you for the right friends that you need. I don't feel bad at all because I know what God is doing in my life so in his timing he's going to send people my way that will have my best interest at heart.

I have who I need in my life so I'm not complaining just expressing how I feel at the present time. Maybe its the baby making me all emotional again...hehehe.... So, let's just remember that sometimes God is keeping us from some people and preparing us for those we need. Let's not get discouraged but rejoice because the future holds so much more...

Lesson Learned......

The other day I was sitting here thinking to myself about how when I use to go through things my first instinct was to pick up the phone and call a friend (most of the time) instead of take it to my father "Jesus"......

Since I was a teenager that's what I did until recently God showed me in the most dramatic way that I must lean on him or nothing will work in my life. He put me in a place where I was stuck; I would lean on ppl trying to get my answer on what to do with certain situations and nothing would ever work.

The reason I'm writing this is b/c we must realize who we can and can not talk too.... There are some ppl who have the love of God and who really want to help you get through certain situations and then there are some ppl who just want to be nosy. I'm going to be real when I say this and most of the ppl that were in my business didn't want to help me they just wanted to be nosy.

You have to be able to discern who is for you and who's not..... God showed me in the worse way possible but he had to do it! I loved God etc. but I was so insecure in myself and not strong enough spiritually to understand that I just needed to be patient and pray!

Being prayerful through ANY situaiton is the most vital thing you can do as a believer. Prayer really does change things.... You have to be consistent and believe that God will do what you ask but he's going to do in his timing and he will work on your behalf.

Pray and take your problems to Jesus and don't give the enemy room by telling your business to nosy ppl..... As believers we have to learn how to take control over our own life and stop letting ppl dictate our future. I learned my lesson as to who I should give my problems too, even though I already knew that he was the first one I should go to my flesh always wanted to hear it from someone else.

I was going through something and through all of what I was going through I finally gave it to Jesus because Man was leading me a stray and my flesh was tired so I gave it to Jesus and he spoke to me as clear as day. From then on I changed who I talked too and now before I decide to even call someone to vent ( by the way it's ok to have a trustworthy person to vent too b/c we all need that) I take it to Jesus and by the time I do get ready to call a friend God already worked it out.

I hate I had to go through that experience but God had to show me he was in charge and he did just that!

i'm seperating myself

I realized that there are times when you have to separate yourself from family, friends, and even some peers who may not seem to care about your feelings but who always put you down no matter what is going on and if it affects you as a person then you have to be mature about the situation and say enough is enough and do it in a mature way and remove yourself from ppl who consistently have something to say to you. Today was the last day that I will allow them to say comments about me. Well, they can talk but I told myself I will just separate myself when they come around. It can be 15 of us sitting around and guess who there main target is.....................................ME....................................and I'm so sick of it! Some may say that I'm acting like this b/c I'm pregnant and that may be true to a certain extinct but for the most part I have been fed up with this for years but it seems like I always find myself around them and they're at it again. Its so petty but it bothers me. I'm always their target and enough is enough. I know sometimes they are joking but its every 5 minutes when I'm around them and a person can only take so much. When other ppl are around I'll ask "Am I the only person you see right here?" I ask that b/c everyone else is ignored and I am always picked on. Sometimes I may have a blonde moment (LOL) but I mean alot of them have it and nobody says anything, I could say somethings back to them that would really hurt (I feel myself getting to that point, that's why I have separate myself) but I won't allow myself to stoop to their level. If you're in a situation where you feel like someone is affecting your self-esteem, you don't feel appreciated, or you find yourself aggravated every time you're around them. Find the courage and strength to separate yourself and no your self worth and don't allow anyone to talk down to you and make you feel less than what you are. One thing I found out, is that when ppl see other ppl do it to you (especially your family) they will (outsiders) will feel that is ok and that's not right. You must stand your ground and let ppl know that you're human just like they are and you have feelings like everyone else and if they can't respect that, then you know what you have to do. I love my family but I'm human and I'm fed up. Anyway, I'm tired of going on about this nonsense but that's how I felt today so until next time! Peace